Saturday, July 20, 2013

I will love you forever, my sweet little soulmate

Avalon

The day started perfect with Avalon's long-stretched daily ritual of kisses and cuddles in bed. I had planned to stay the rest of the day with him. I went for groceries early in the morning to be sure that nothing or no-one could separate us later that day.

When I came home 45 minutes later, Avalon had vomited all over the place and was pleading for help. I called the vet and he told me he would be there between two and three pm. Ten minutes later, I was already on my way to the vet myself because Avalon's situation had gotten worse. He was drooling and panting. At the vet's, Avalon put his little head against my belly and his front paws around my waist while the vet was performing several tests and treatments.

Less than an hour after we arrived, the vet discovered that the muscle around his heart had grown to a point that he could hardly breath anymore. He had no more than two weeks to live and would be in constant pain.

Avalon died peacefully in my arms today while I told him how much I loved him, how he had always been the one for me and how happy he had made me.

Never had I expected to love a cat so much. He was the one who taught me about love, about what it meant to love unselfishly. Our relationship was so fusional we could never be more than a few hours without each other. How I am supposed to live the rest of my life without him, I really don't know.

With Avalon I lost my soulmate, my purpose, my inspiration, the one great love of my life. Our love was the kind that transcended time and, I'm sure, will even transcend death.

I will love you forever, Avalon.

Avalon
Avalon
Avalon

83 comments:

Katnip Lounge said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss. I lost my Dusty in a similiar way. It's very hard.
Sending you soft purrs and hugs from the Lounge--Trish

ra husky said...

We stopped to paw our condolences, soft husky woooos,

RA, Isis & Nanük

wicKED said...

Words can not express how truly sorry I am for you. In the positive, think of the amazing life you provided for the little guy. I hope you find peace and find another furry soul mate one day.

Queen.of.the.cats said...

Te acompaño de todo corazón, yo acabo de perder a mi gato Igor de 8 años. Otro angel más en el cielo

Cara n Crew said...

we are so sorry for your loss. purrs,

Pip, Smidgen, Minnie, Hollie

Cory said...

Our hearts ache for you. We are so sorry. Avalon was very special. We know how hard it is to lose a kitty soulmate.

Soft comforting purrs from all of us.

Cory and family

Fisher and Staff said...

I am so sad and sorry to hear of Avalon's passing. Losing a soul mate is so hard. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make you feel better. Be good to yourself, take time, and know there are many followers out here who love and care for you.

MikiHope said...

I am so sorry to hear this--just know that Avalon is waiting for you over the rainbow. I know no other pet will replace Avalon-I still hold a place in my heart for each of my special friends-and eventually, like me, perhaps you may bump into another special little girl or guy when you are ready.

CATachresis said...

There are really no words to express how sorry I am for the loss of Avalon. He had a great life with you and he is a rest now. Gentle hugs and purrs from Austin xox

Molly The Wally said...

We are so sorry to hear that sweet Avalon has gone to the rainbow bridge. We send big hugs and love. Our thoughts and prayers are with you today.
Best wishes Molly

Kurt Debaillie said...

When I read the message yesterday, my heart skipped a beat. The thought still renders me speechless... Goodbye my little friend. I will miss you.

miki said...

i'm so sorry for you, i know how hard it is and how useless we feel when we can't help them. i had a fright with my friend because he started to vomit several time too and he was so pityfull i was so afraid thanks god that passed but as long as we don't know the real cause i'm won't be rassured completely.

you did the right thing for Avalon and i'm sure he would have wanted to stay with you more simply he couldn't.... it will be hard but you will manage because that's what he would want and when you are ready i'm sure he will make you meet another little one who will need you a smuch as you need it it won't remplace Avalon it will simply open another part of your heart

Caren Gittleman said...

Oh dear God I am in complete shock. I am so deeply sorry. I am stunned. My heart is breaking for you. I know too well what you are going through because my beloved Bobo passed due to the same issues.
You must find the strength to get through this, Avalon would want that.
He brought so much joy to all of us and will be most deeply missed.
Please, please if I can be of any help at all, I am here.
xoxoxo

speedyrabbit said...

Oh No...we're in shock.We are so sorry that your sweet boy Avalon has gone,we are with you always sharing our love for you and your Angel Boy,you will see him again when the time is right,and he will always be with you in your heart,You will live and one day your broken heart will heal as you meet a new furbaby who will find a place in you heart,and if you need us you know where to reach us we will always be there for you,xx Speedy and Rachel

Texas, a Cat in New York said...

I am so so sorry to read that Avalon has crossed the Rainbow Bridge. It is so very difficult, especially when it is your soulmate kitty.
I am sending lots of hugs and our kitties lots of purrs.
Carine
(Texas' human)

Kira said...

Lo siento mucho. Es terrible perder un compañero del alma.
Descansa en paz precioso Avalon.

meowmeowmans said...

We are so sorry that Avalon had to go to the Bridge. Thank you for loving him so much, and so well. We are purring and praying for you as you miss your special soulmate cat, and sending hugs.

Rodrico Compas said...

Lovely pet.... :)


Kind Regards
Rodrico Compas

Clooney said...

Oh no, how heart-breaking. I am in shock too hearing this. I am so, so sorry and my heart truly goes out to you as I know the pain of losing a soul kitty. May the gentle arms of Spirit embrace and comfort you as you know the love and precious connection that you and Avalon share. You will be in my thoughts.

Be Well Sweet Avalon

Laila and Minchie said...

Our hearts are breaking for you. RIP sweet Avalon. You are in our thoughts and purrs.

Old Kitty said...

Oh I am so so sorry. :-( Please take care, lots of comfort hugs, x

Katie Isabella said...

I am just heart-sick about your loss. When we love our babies like that, it is of the worst pain imaginable when they leave us. I am so so so sorry.
Rest peacefully darling. Your mommy will be along one day and you will be reunited.

Jan's Funny Farm said...

It is always hard to lose a beloved kitty. We are so sorry for the loss of your precious Avalon. Hugs

♥Mona + Weenie + Mommy, too♥ said...

We just heard of the loss of your sweet Avalon. Our hearts are breaking for you. We lost my brother Weenie in a tragic accident on Memorial Day and Mommy didn't want another doggie but her heart is too big and she has room for more than one pet. We got Prissy in honor of my Weenie. You will find another live some day and Avalon will be watching over you just like Weenie does Mommy.

♥♥♥Mona & Prissy

Sparkle said...

Oh no! I feel so awful for you and was totally heart-broken when I saw your post. I know I can't say anything to make you feel better, but I hope the purrs I am sending you help just a little.

Simba said...

We are sorry. Fly and run free, Avalon.

ABBY said...

I am so so so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved little soulmate. There are no words that can comfort your aching heart, but we hold your in our strong purrs and prayers.

crazykittykat1 said...

I am so sorry to read of the heart breaking loss of your soul mate. I haven't blogged a lot lately but once in a while stop by. It is shocking how quickly our life changes in one day. I know your heart is breaking and there will only be one Avalon.Their little lives are so short but you filled it with lots of love. I hope some day soon the memories of Avalon warms your heart. <3

HH and The Boys said...

I have tears for you. We send you hugs and all our purs.I know how much you love Avalon. We send you our comfort and love.

Hugs, Bugsy, Knuckles, and HH (Lou)

Tillie and Georgia said...

We heard about Avalon and had to come and offer some comfort.
We know it is hard to lose a beloved pet.
Purrs Tillie and Georgia,
Treasure,Tiger,JJ and Julie

Alasandra, The Cats and Dogs said...

We are so sorry for your heartbreaking loss. Avalon will always live in your heart and we hopes one day soon the treasured memories will bring smiles and not tears. Purrs of comfort and sympathy

Angel DaisyMae Maus said...

Charmee and I wish to convey our sincerest condolences. I know exactly what it's like to lose a kitty soulmate. I recently lost mine and it hurts daily. It does get easier, though ...
Hugs as you grieve,
Charmee & Jessica

Gin and Bailey said...

We want to offer our heartfelt condolence at the loss of sweet Avalon to you & your family along with hugs & prayers too....

Maggie May said...

Our hearts ache for you. Please know we are sending you comforting purrs during this very sad time. (((hugs)))
XOXO
Maggie May and The Creek Cats

Brian said...

Oh dear, we are all so very sorry to hear about sweet Avalon. There just isn't word, so we send you many purrs, and lots of love and hugs.

Team Tabby said...

We are very sorry to hear that you lost Avalon so suddenly and unexpectedly. We hope that sending our comforting purrs and love will help at this sad time.

Mindy
Moe
Cookie
Mike

Cathy Keisha said...

Oh no. NO! NO! Not my furrend! Sorry. I've come to pay my respects to Avalon but your post was so gut wrenching. Fly free, dear Avalon.

Our Rainbow Friends said...

I'm so sorry to hear the news about Avalon. I just know he left behind so many wonderful memories that you will always cherish. Run young and free, sweet boy.

Mo and The Purries said...

So sorry for your loss. Sending condolences from Purrchance To Dream and The Cat Blogosphere.

♥Da fambly kitties♥ said...

Sending tender thoughts for your immense loss of a dear and good friend.

Charlemagne and Tamar said...

We are so, so sorry for your loss.

Run free, Avalon.

Sending soft purrs,
Charlemagne, Tamar and Mal

China Cat and Spike William said...

We are so sorry to hear that Avalon went to the Rainbow Bridge. It's so hard to lose a soulmate kitty. Our purrs and prayers are with you.

Purrrrrrrrrrrs, China Cat & Spike William

Melody said...

So sorry for your loss of Avalon. I know you loved him very much and he you!
My thoughts are with you!

Random Felines said...

We are so very sorry about Avalon. The hardest part of loving any animal is having to say goodbye too soon.

Grrreta: Ambrose, Clarence, Teddi, Baskin, and Abner said...

We are so very sorry for your loss of sweet Avalon. Our hearts ache for you losing such a special cat with whom you had such a special bond. We send you lots of comforting purrs.

Chesney Cats said...

So very sorry for the loss of your beautiful Avalon.

Samantha, Clementine and Maverick said...

Purrrs and prayers for Avalon's Family!! We shall miss you Avalon! Lots of hugs!
Your TX furiends<

Everycat said...

We did not know of beautiful Avalon until today, so we dropped by to say how sorry we are that he left you. You had such a special bond and he was a very special being. We send you love and rumbly purrs to ease you. Don't doubt that he will stay in your heart forever. We hope that the terrible sadness soon gives way to happy memories.

Be kind and gentle with yourself.

Gerry, Mungo & The Ape xx

The Furries of Whisppy said...

We are so sorry Avalon has flown to the Bridge. :(
Sending gentle headbumps and purrs.

harringtonspetfood said...

I am so sorry for your loss! Sending a big hug!

Hilary said...

Vanessa, I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to love a beloved pet like avalon - he will live on in your heart - sending hugs

Gracie=^o.o^= said...

My heart is heavy with sadness and the tears are coming down the mom's cheeks as she is typing. I am so sorry to hear that sweet Avalon has run off to the bridge. Know I am thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way and will pray that your heart can start to heal with each day that passes. We are forever changed by loving a furrie. He will always be with you.

Katie Cross said...

I'm so sorry. There's no describing the joy and pain a pet can bring into our lives. Prayers and good thoughts for you and Avalon!

Mariodacat said...

We're so very sorry for your loss. Every now and then there is that extra special kitty that comes along, and Avalon was that for you. Our hearts are heavy for your loss. Know we are thinking of you and feeling your pain. M sends big HUGS!

Bellen said...

What a terrible, terrible thing to have happened. To have to make such a decision so quickly, too. I wish I could help in some way. Godspeed, Avalon.

Melissa said...

I am so very sorry for your heartbreaking loss. Avalon was simply stunning. My own fur baby Tara crossed the Rainbow Bridge two weeks ago and my heart is still shattered. Sending hugs, purrs, and love your way.

da tabbies o trout towne said...

sending R sinceerest sympatheez two ewe on yur loss...

avalon, God's speed two ewe...

N two yur mom, may God give ewe comfort in yur heart

XOX

Forty Paws said...

I'm so sorry that Avalon has crossed over. Many hugs and purrs and purrayers to you during this very difficult time.

Luf, Us and Maw

Karen Jo said...

I am so very sorry that you had to help Avalon cross the Rainbow Bridge. It is so very hard to lose your heart-kitty. I know because I lost mine last November. Luckily, I have others in my life. Maybe some day you will find another special kitty, though you can never replace Avalon. I send hugs and the kitties send comforting purrs.

Karen Jo, Spyro, Oja, Rocio, Bambino and Horus

Avalon's Garden and Mewsings of Garden Cottage Cats said...

We are so Sorry Avalon had to leave fur da Bridge ^..^ We purray fur Bright light to guide his way, and send Soft Purrz to help heal your broken heart ~ One day you will be together again.

Safe Journey Avalon ~ ♥

Colehaus Cats said...

Sweet Avalon, we are so sorry you were called to the Bridge too soon but thankful to hear that your person was there for you at the end of this life. Sending gentle purrs...

haopee said...

We're sorry to hear this. It is sad when our loved ones cross the rainbow bridge. I pray that your heart will recover from Avalon's lost.

Hugs and Prayers,

Haopee

Old number said...

our testimonial to your beloved Avalon has brought tears to my eyes. :{ I'm so sorry for your loss.

Camp Stanhope Happenings said...

We are very sorry for your loss. Sending peaceful thoughts and purrs for you in this difficult time.

The Cat From Hell said...

We is so furry sad. Avalon was one of our favorite blogs and wes will miss him furry much. We is also sad for yous! Wes sends yous many comforting purrs and head butts! We also sends yous strength along with our lives!
Kisses
Nellie, Kozmo, Jo-Jo, the hairy slobbery sisters Bob and Cinnamon and Mommy!

THE ZOO said...

We are so sorry for your loss. Purrs to you all.

Jessica Marie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sounds like what happened to my Olivia. :( If you need anything, please don't hesitate to e-mail me (nose.pierced.beauty89@gmail.com)

Kitties Blue said...

We know we read this post and we were sure we wrote a condolence comment, but we don't see it. We are so super sorry for your loss. Mom has lost a couple of kitties very suddenly like that and it is so hard to come to terms with it. Mommy says she would wrap her arms around you and give you a huge hug if she could. You are in our thoughts and purrayers. Purrs and hugs, Lily Olivia, Mauricio, Misty May, Giulietta, Fiona, Astrid, Lisbeth and Calista Jo

The Musings Of A Crazy Cat Lady said...

I'm so very, very sad about this. I felt the same way about my Bobbi who died at the age of 16.5 over ten years ago. Please know my heart is with you. Thank you for sharing dear Avalon with us. He was a handsome, sweet boy. Stephanie

Christina Berry said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your little soulmate Avalon. I too lost my soulmate kitty a few years ago. The pain is devastating, I know. I remember not being able to fathom how I was able to keep breathing. It helped me to keep talking to her, even after she was physically no longer with me. I believe that Avalon is with you in spirit and one day you'll see each other again. I hope you can find some peace and comfort during this unimaginably painful time.

My anxious life said...

This is sad... I just don't know what I am going to do when my two little babies leave this world. The both have diabetes and I struggle to keep them alive. Your little Avalon will be waiting for you in the beyond.

Marg said...

I am so sorry that Avalon had to go to the bridge. It is always so sad. We sure send big hugs. Thanks so much for visiting our blog. Wish we had visited you a lot sooner.

Cris said...

I'm in tears right now. For sure cats are great souls who teach us love. Remember Avalon as a little furry angel who lived a good and loving life at your side.

ra husky said...

Soft husky wooooos,

RA

The Cat Guy said...

I didn't know Avalon, having just learned about you and your blog from your recent comment on Fourwhitepaws, but my heart is sad just the same. Losing a precious kitty hurts. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you grieve and figure out how to go on with life without the physical presence of your soulcat, who I'm sure will keep a close connection with you in spirit form, waiting for you to rejoin him on the otherside. --hugs and purrs.

Sushi said...

Oh my. I didn't know this. I'm so sorry for your loss. I felt really sad about this. Made me think how it's like when my sushi crosses over. This is such a heart break. Wow, i don't know what to say. - Piper

Sushi said...

Oh my. I didn't know this. I'm so sorry for your loss. I felt really sad about this. Made me think how it's like when my sushi crosses over. This is such a heart break. Wow, i don't know what to say. - Piper

Avalon's Garden and Mewsings of Garden Cottage Cats said...

We are so furry Sorry dat Avalon had to go to de Bridge. We went thru dis only a couple ov monthz ago also when Penelope left us furry suddenly too..... Avalon waz such a Beautiful kitty, we send Soft Purrz & Kissiez your way. We are sure Penelope haz tracked down Avalon and dey are hangin owt together ( she haz a fondness fur de name Avalon..... hehe ^.,^ ) ♥♥xoxo♥♥

Katie Isabella said...

I am deeply sorry to read of Avalon's passing. I wish I had known his sooner. I can understand the sorrow and tears at losing your heart cat. If anything happens to my Katie, I would be totally devastated. xxoo

Cathy said...

So sad - what a tribute to your beautiful cat you have made.

Chatdesîles said...

C'est un très bel hommage pour Avallon.
Dorénavant, il veille sur vous ...

Susanne said...

Nothing can ever take the place of a beloved cat companion. He takes his place in our heart with him across the rainbow bridge. We may be able to love another, but never again like we have loved that one.

I lost my beloved Paulie to chronic renal failure only a few months after you lost your beloved Avalon, and from the way this loss stil hurts me, I can imagine how you feel.

Getting another cat who pours his love over us helps, but only a little.

I believe that when they are gone, they really pass on and wait for us to rejoin them beyond the rainbow. Before Paulie died, I had the strong impression of some cats sitting beside a river, waiting calmly and silently for him to approach the water's edge. I believe they will be there for me too one day.

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